Hi Brad and Brad,
Tonight marks one year
ago to the day where Morgan and I's lives were changed. Her life
obviously much more affected than mine. Today was a difficult day to
get through. I was diagnosed with PTSD from the events that happened
one year ago (also other events that transpired over the next several
weeks). For the most part, the post-traumatic stress didn't haunt me.
However, at various time points today I did find myself needing
reassurance by hearing Morgan's voice. The moment where I needed it
most was on the drive home from Madison to Milwaukee. That was the
75-minute drive this time last year, where I didn't think anything of
her not picking up the phone on my way home. Hearing her pick up on my
way home tonight overwhelmed me and triggered a release of emotion.
After I was able to compose myself again, I put No Code on to listen
to. I mentioned several months ago that had become my Soundtrack of
2018. It helped provide me an equilibrium in a time where my mind was
beginning to spiral. Every time I get to "Present Tense" I begin to
look back on events in my past. That song has a way of putting me into a
mode of respective, not only of the last 12 months, but also much
farther back in my life.
Forced to endure, what I could not forgive,
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